I think every single one of my family members (maybe even some of my friends) looked at me like I was NUTS when I said I was going to Uganda in a month. And when I told them I didn’t know a single soul going, where I will be staying, or what I will be doing they nearly fell over. (Tehe the thought of that makes me giggle.)
After they got up from the floor, almost everyone asked the question “are you scared to go?” I mean, obviously that’s a reasonable question to ask given the fact that I had ZERO information of the trip. All I knew was what organization I was going with and what time I needed to be at the airport. (Did that just give you anxiety? Because typing that just gave me a bit of anxiety.) ANYWHO… every time I was asked this question, I always responded with “I’m not scared to go. I’m scared to come back.” Kind of an odd response but that’s exactly how I felt. For months, I have been desperately praying for certain things in my life to change. I prayed that God would make the changes happen Himself because I knew I wasn’t strong or brave enough to do it on my own. I had this overwhelming peace about going to Uganda but every time I thought about coming back, I felt sick to my stomach because I KNEW drastic change was coming my way.
Well… CAN YOU GUESS WHAT HAPPENED?!… I was right. (But really, when am I not? Jk.)
While I worked at Universal, I had the opportunity to work premieres and attend the after parties of the upcoming films we had. Sweet gig, right?! There was one specific premiere that I remember the most and it was the premiere of Unbroken in Los Angeles on December 15, 2014.
I remember feeling off that night… I loved working events and being apart of what I was doing. I didn’t take it for granted but during this time in my life, I was struggling. I was questioning every aspect of what I was doing, who I was and honestly; I was questioning every ounce of humanity because of the things I was dealing with. Let alone constantly being around the superficial Hollywood scene did not help with this. But that night, I had the pleasure of meeting a cute World War II veteran who wore big glasses, a blue collared shirt, khaki pants, a blue hat and the most adorable smile. Continue reading
It’s officially been a year since I was in Japan… So crazy how quickly time flies. I could write a novel on all the things we did and the places we saw but honestly, I’m not in the mood. I would upload more but this dumb dumb over here (me), misplaced half of the photos. UGH I could cry. But, check out these anyways! Geisha pictures are PRICELESS and are a crack up. Playing with monkeys was by far my favorite activity. Happy to answer any questions you may have as well, so ask away!
Well friends, we are 6 days into the new year… Did anyone happen to have any New Year’s resolutions this year? I haven’t heard much chatter about anyone’s if so…
I mean, I’ve never really been into New Year’s resolutions… In fact, I’m not really into New Years in general BUT I have tried to come up with resolutions… You know, New Year, New Me type of thing. (HA whata joke). Last year I was so excited, I got out my cute little blue journal/creative book and drew “2015 GOALS” at the top of a clean white page. And, you know what happened!? I stared at that darn page for a WEEK and could not come up with ONE THING! Not one. Ugh.
So, I tried again this upcoming year… Can anyone guess what happened? Yup, THE SAME DARN THING HAPPENED! I mean, of course, I thought of a few things such as workout more, eat healthier (HA. I love chocolate chip cookies too much), maybe not hit or back into any more poles, and yada yada… I was actually really frustrated on why I couldn’t come up with anything. “Come on, Caitlin get it together!!! It’s a new year, new start, what’s something I want to accomplish” I thought to myself. Well… Being frustrated didn’t help, so I had given up on the idea of having a New Year’s resolution until it finally hit me why I couldn’t come up with anything and what my resolution is.
My poor mother (bless her soul) has had to hear me talk about making a website/blog for over a year now. And I say “bless her soul” because when I want to do something or have a new idea, I talk and talk and talk about it until I figure out every little detail for it. Annoying… I know. BUT! I no longer have to talk her ear off about this!! Applause for mom!! (I’ll just move on to bugging her about something else now, hehe)
I’ve been wanting this to be perfect but I’ve lost patience and decided to make my site live no matter what it looks like… So please bare with me.
As said, I’ve wanted to do this for awhile and this is for anything I want to be creative with; drawings, writing, music, photography, etc. Mostly, this is to express my heart, to share struggles I’ve been through, continue to go through & hope to help someone along the way. It’s to shed light in the darkest of places & is always to be a reminder that humans genuinely care. All you need is to find those humans. Now, this would be the perfect time to imagine a massive blinking arrow, pointing down to me as I wave my arms up and down to get you to notice… (To help anyone who didn’t just get that, I’m a human who genuinely cares.)
Very few know my story so this is a huge leap of faith for me. It’s something I know I have to do in order to go in the direction I want to go so I would love to hear what your thoughts/opinions are. For all my loved ones who have supported and loved me unconditionally, I thank God every single day for you & my heart is always yours. And for the haters, you have no idea how much motivation you give me. I’ll always be here with the warmest hug once you come around.